Since yesterday I've went from being a somewhat optimistic person to being self loathing. Bi-polar? nuh, bad news. My life is set up in a game of dominos, one piece falls and everything comes crashing down at once in a mess of irrepairable damage.
What now? Porn? Working nights at 7/11?
I keep trying to force myself out of this shitty mentality, prove it's temporary, push myself to fight instead of give up. I've already given up.
What can I do when there is absolutely nothing to do? I've failed at so much, and with so little ability I don't have anything. I'm a wasted life. It's pathetic.
About Me
- Misty's dirty things
- I'm a lady, or better yet I'm female. I read. I write. I'm confused most of the time. Occasionally I write something that's interesting, but not usually and I cope with alcohol. My mother says I pushed my way from her womb by wedging my feet under her ribs and shoving out. This shows the kind of person I am, I think.
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